Where Has Diamond Been?

.It has been a while since I have made a post on social media. I have been on break for a while. I had been suffering depression for quite some time and social media made it worse. We all know what is posted on social media is nothing but smoke and mirrors, but somehow, our brains process it as reality. With that, I have refrained from posting or engaging with anyone via the cyber world. Instead, I have kept to myself. Last week, I suffered a horrible mental breakdown along with aches and pains shooting through my body. I cried for six hours straight until I fell asleep. Then for the next few days, my body began detoxing itself. Sneezing, coughing, sweating, frequent trips to the bathroom. It is as though I needed that good 6 hour cry to trigger the detox process. I am still detoxing physically and mentally.

I cannot stress enough how important self-care is for both Dommes and subs. If you ever find yourself needing a break, boys, please do not hesitate to contact Me about it. Let your Goddess know that you need some time. I will not get upset. After all, we are human. Of course, I expect you to put My needs before yours, but not at the expenses of your physical and mental health! If your health is suffering, please seek help. Reach out to loved ones. See a therapist. Go to the doctor. Get a massage. Health is wealth! You cannot be of use to Me if your health is not in decent shape.

During this time away, I have been devising ideas for new video clips as well as considering getting back on Chaturbate. I enjoyed Chaturbate. It has great potential to be lucrative. Yes, Chaturbate is mostly vanilla, but there are some kinky people. I remember once draining a guy of all of his tokens. He did not realize it until well after the fact because he was so horny. I truly love that kind of interaction! I miss it too.

As far as video clip ideas go, I am bringing out more sensual domination and I want my clips to be ultra sexy. Little secret: some fantasies I want to live out on film. I remember telling My partner of a vampire fantasy I had. Later that night, I dreamed about it in detail. The next day, I wrote an entire summary of the fantasy. I still have visions of it in My mind. The only thing is it would require Me being in a more submissive role, but I do not mind as long as I am on film with someone I trust. I want to dip My feet into being on the receiving end of some things such as tickling, spanking, flogging, and rope bondage. I know some will say, "oh but it will taint your image as a Domme." I never truly was hellbent on keeping up appearances. I do not believe being on the receiving end of some things makes one any less dominant. Countless times I've watched samples of videos of Dommes being spanked, tied, tickled, and flogged, but they still kick ass on the regular. Besides, I think it is time to venture out of My comfort zone, for I feel the reward will be so much greater than the risk.

For the remainder of May, I will continue to be off of social media. Sometime into June, I will come back. Between now and then, I will be caring for Myself as well as making the necessary moves in order to bring my imaginations to life. If you do not ask, you will not receive. I am keeping that in My head.